Wake me up when September ends...

I'm not sure what's worse. Knowing that I haven't been to see my extended family in two years, or knowing that I can't go see them until next year.

As I sat down to ponder over my maternal grandmother's accomplishments in life for her obituary and think about her during her last bit of time on earth, I find out my paternal grandfather is in an induced coma after his heart stopped four times last night.


I'm bringing a new life into this world any day now and so much life seems to be slipping away. Today I can't help but feel a heavy heart as I will not be able to see either grandparent since I'm on bed rest.

I think a lot about my daughter and her future relationship with her grandparents. I ache inside knowing she will be so far from them.

My grandmother holding me as a baby