Dear Lillian, I saw your tiny kicks

Dear Lillian,

Over the past few weeks, I've felt you move quite frequently. It wasn't until today that I actually saw your little kicks.

Your dad was sitting next to me and got to see it at the same time. He seemed pretty amazed. It's strange to think that a tiny human is growing inside of me.

You can barely see the tiny kicks in the video, but it's definitely noticeable in person. You haven't stopped moving since.

We ate Mexican food tonight and I'm wondering if you get as excited as I do when I have Mexican food. It's my favorite. Lillian, I probably eat Mexican food three times a week. In fact, I ate it twice today. Your dad loves it as much as I do. I think that's one of the reason's I married him. :-)

This has been the most challenging month of my pregnancy. I have been very sick since I found out I was pregnant at 3 weeks. I went from throwing up several times a day to only a few times a week. I'm glad the queasiness is easing up, but the exhaustion is not. This month, I have been photographing weddings like crazy. I just got back from photographing a wedding in Charleston, South Carolina. It took quite a physical toll on my body.

I realized something this past weekend. I must put you first. I'm so used to putting every one else above my own needs. Even though you are a part of me, I must put you first...above my clients and above my needs. If my body says rest...I must rest. If my body says stop...I must stop. If I'm hungry...I must eat. Your entire life support is dependent upon me. I need to do everything I can to protect you. I have decided to take it easy and cut way back on my photography business until you are born. I cannot fathom putting my future success above your health and well-being. You are too precious for me to take for granted.

-Me